Wait but Why?

Hi, first of all, thank you for making it this far, I know it’s the first sentence of my first blogpost but since I understand the effort it takes to open and actually start reading, I appreciate it. :)

So, this is not the first time that the idea of starting a blog has hit me. Like most of us ‘young teens’ who go through that phase of wanting to do these kinda cool things, I had it too. So I started writing (in my notebook ofcourse because typing doesn’t give you the feel when you’re being pretentious) about all sorts of things about myself that the internet loves, like loving photography, wanting to travel the world, loving reading (I’ll be honest here now, either you’re a reader, or you’re not, and I’m most certainly not) and stuff that went on and on along it’s path made of cringe. Thankfully, when my enthusiastic self showed it to my sister seeking approval, she gave me a nod and a polite “Rehne de” and it ended there.

But since that episode, I’ve always had glimpses of my existential crisis where I asked my self, “Who am I?”. And this was not because I wanted to follow some path of spirituality, but because I simply wanted a blog. And as rules went by in my mind, if I wanted someone to read what I’m writing, I needed to tell them who I was in the first place.

The thing is I still don’t know. But the funny part that took me long enough to realise is, none of us do. It’s true that some of us are more self-aware than others, which is awesome, but 9 times out of 10, the question “who am I?” will still lead you to a plateau after some time, if not immediately.

But coming back to after the idea of blogging didn’t work out, left went by like it does typically does with other tasks to complete in a day, and this idea was left to rot in the deep dungeons of my brain. But one thing I used to love doing during this time, was to think of my Instagram captions as my way of making the picture I was uploading go that little bit farther. I had unknowingly started diving deep into this hunt inside a picture to find words out of it. So a little comment of “nice caption” every now and then started to come up and soon enough it became friends with my self-esteem. Now, it felt good to come up with something everytime, because now and again, those 1-2 people that saw my post, really thought that those 2 lines were worth appreciating more than the whole picture that took most of the space on their screen. It was kind of a high after that, and I started writing some 4 liners and its and bits here and there, but the idea of really writing, was still inside those dungeon walls.

Until this one fine day, my sister comes up and asks for a caption, and with all my bravado, I go “why ask me?”, and she goes “Cause you write really well”. Now one thing that is universal in this world, when your sibling appreciates something about you, you can be a 1000% sure that it’s real no matter what the world says.

That moment right there, sparked a lightbulb, and I took that bulb inside those walls down there and found the idea, still alive, and brought it back up.

This thought came to me the other day, that writing this first blogpost feels like the first sip of the greatest cup of coffee there is.

Now, the question of how would this first blog go about things came up again, and I was kinda stuck again. But then I thought, the answer to “Why read what I’m writing?” is not really supposed to be given by me. It’s yours and the people who’ll land up here. I hope you do find an answer soon enough as I start to come up with other things I’m up to on this page. And even if you don’t, you can always come looking for one the next time. ;)

So, my name is Paarug Sethi, and this is Mindful Prattle (prattle is just a fancy word for ramble), and for those of you still wondering about how I don’t have an idea about anything related to this, I’m positive about steering this on the lines of a Lifestyle-ish and sometimes infotainment, good vibes blog, but I won’t give it a genre so that no one can say anything to me if I some day post about something completely random.

That’ll be it for now, you’re the real OG if you made it till here, I thank you, and I’m hoping I’ll see you down here next week too.

Have a nice day xx